There is darkness in each of us and there’s no denying it. At times we can control it but on days that we cannot, all hell breaks loose. Mean words are spoken and negative actions are made; regret and apologies then follow.
But what is it about us that makes us lash out and allow our anger gets the best of us? Is it because it’s in our nature as human beings? Is it because it is genetically embedded in our system? Is it a learned behavior? According to an article called Psychology Today,
Anger is a corrosive emotion that can run off with your mental and physical health.
The Hulk isn’t a real person but the emotion and rage he has in him whenever he transforms into his green self-are very real. That moment when you’re about to explode; that moment when you just want to destroy everything.
I now accept anger and rage. I accept this flaw because it’s who I am and I’m not perfect. What’s hard to swallow is the regret I feel after everything. I feel ashamed for having acted a certain way and feel sorry for the people I’ve affected. It’s even harder to swallow when people hate you even more for it. After regretting, feeling ashamed, and sorry comes the hardest part of all; acceptance. Owning up to your actions is tough and there’s no way around it but get through it.
If only I can turn back the hands of time to stop my demons. We all know this is impossible. All I can do from here on out is to learn from my mistakes and walk away to avoid stressful situations.